“Some of the best moments in life come from doing things that scare you most”
As I am someone who has dealt with anxiety for quite a long time, I know how hard this can be. And I also know how frustrating it is when people denounce you for not being able to do something that seems so easy to them. A few months back, I bought a single ticket to see twenty one pilots. Although I have seen them in the past, I wanted to go back, because the show last time left me speechless and I wanted to experience it all over again, whether someone was with me or not. The tickets sold out in under a minute, and the girl I was going to go with didn’t get one.
In that moment, past me would’ve retreated and sold the ticket online. Like I did with Splendour when things weren’t going to plan. But, I knew I would regret it.
So, I hopped on the train to the valley and went in by myself.
As I was in line, I began to think about what actually was scary about doing things alone, was it the genuine fear that something was going to go wrong or is it the fear that other people will judge you. I realised that it was the section option, and therefore that was a fear that I could overcome.
I found myself in the middle of the mosh and had one the best nights ever. I found myself noticing so much more about the music and the lyrics than I had previously. I felt connected, not only to the people who were singing my favourite songs beside me, but to myself. I stood there with my hands in the air and phone in my pocket (other than maybe 5 short videos I caught) and really fucking enjoyed myself.
If there is something that you want to do but you’re afraid, this is your sign. Do it – the worst that can happen is that you learn something, and the only thing that comes with saying no is regret.