Track No. 4 Car Radio, written by Tyler Joseph from Twenty One Pilots’ first studio album Vessel is my favourite song. Why? Because I feel like it was written by me for me. It captures my thoughts so paralysingly that I often wonder how another human out there can translate the deepest thoughts and struggles in my head to words on a page. How could someone understand what I am feeling so well and be able to express this? I am aware the song is actually a true story, and Tyler did get his car radio stolen, but I believe the metaphor is more than just ironic..and I know a lot of other people feel the same way.
“I ponder of something great.
My lungs will fill and then deflate.
They fill with fire,
I know it’s dire,
My time today.”
This opening verse for me shows how I feel a lot. I know I have a limited time on this planet which equates to a finite time in which I have to conquer all of what I want to accomplish with my life. This causes me a lot of pressure, but I don’t just ponder of something good, I ponder of something great. I know I am going to have to try harder than other people to fill my desires with satisfaction. I have all these great ideas and the ambition to conquer them, but life is moving fast and time waits for nobody.
I think people who have emotionally suffered know that “quiet [can be] violent.” When you are left alone with your thoughts in silence, there is nothing to distract you from the reality of what you are feeling. When he says “My pride is no longer inside, it’s on my sleeve,” I believe it to mean his pride goes away, and his thoughts attack him. Pride in this case meaning the shell he has built around his true feelings. When it is taken away, he is forced to no longer hide and and confront his shame and emotions.
There are only two basic things in life, peace and fear. And in the end, death is peace, so therefore peace conquers. Peace is made up of faith that life will get better. Fear is made of sleep because sleeping is more like hiding from life. You must choose one or the other, because to have faith you must be awake to believe. Once awake, we can think. Once thinking, you are alive.