Versions Of Myself

I’ve tried

to become someone else for a while,only to discover that he, too, was me. ―Stephen Dunn


I saw this quote/poem on the Berlin Artparasites Page and it really resonated with me. 
As a person, I have had an internal conflicting issue with myself, where I have various versions of my own identity. No version of my myself is greater than other. We do not search for our identity, just like we don’t ‘find our identity.’ We create our identity. I am layers of things I have wanted to be, things which run inside my head, and thoughts of everything that I could be. Sometimes I feel frivolous, sometimes androgynous. There is a part of me that dreams of bleaching my hair and hiding in a basement mixing music and playing the electric guitar. There is a part of me that wants to sit by the ocean for hours and undergo charka meditation. There is a part of me that wants to photograph skateboarders/surfers and work for What Youth. There is a part of me that wants to sit in a discussion circle and discuss salvation in the secular age. There is a part of me that wants to scream Tyler the Creator lyrics and not give a fuck about anything. There is a part of me that wants to go back to 80s and runway in a girl band and photograph everything on polaroids. There is a part of me that wants to drive down Highway1 and blast twenty one pilots whilst yelling weird shit at passers by. There is a part of me that wants to move to Brooklyn and get drunk every night. This is all me. All versions of myself.

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